Monday, 19 May 2014

"Snow'd Day 1"


"Snow'd Day 1"

I woke from a vague dream
It lacked the vividness
Of it's predecessors
Woke to find my li'l lion
Softly purring in sleep peaceful
Turned and lo
Found the curtain drawn
Last I knew, I had sealed
The tall window veil shut
But now awoke to find the Moon
Reflection of the deathly pale face
On the marble floor, so humble
Moonlight rippling, in shadows
I sat up, then stood,
Walked and glanced out and upwards
The moon seemed to gaze back
Lonely, no stars, nor clouds
Alike me, that deserted hour
Sighing, I walked around
Found my phone blinking green
Held it in my palm, my little window
Into a glorious world,
Where I found a dwelling
I tapped the numbers; unlocked
And then I saw-
My Snowflake had sent word
Three young lines
While I slept, in shallow slumber
Then popped a message
From my dearest Frosty
Knowing I was "there"
It could only be a blessing
On the eve of a to-be bright day
I mumbled, tweeted, elated
Then came a hmm-ing,
My Snowfall agreed
To pen down an emotive poem
For passion in a game
The previous morn
I'd heard the voice of my Snow
The Angel I've known
For more than a decade
Was this a kind blessing, in bliss?
The golden feline cuddled up to me
And I had spoken dear
I needed more rest by the night
For the dawn would bring
A first-day, of another long year
I prayed my thanks
And drifted into an unwonted dream

Saturday, 10 May 2014

"Mothers' Day"

All round the year, quite a few people await this day. Me? I don't care. Not really. I found something what I'd written months ago, thought about sharing it here.




So finally, the day has come, where our mom's are on the top of the world.
They should be proud to have such wonderful kids like us. 

So just go to your mom right now, and give her a HUGE HUG! Even if the don't like hugs like me, Just do it, one day out of the 365... we could have it every day, but no. We don't.

I wanted to actually share something with you all...
Just yesterday, I was all alone on the second floor of our home, just went back to my room silently, like I usually do, and I saw something like a rat move across the floor. I just stood there, and peeped in, saw that it was a SQUIRREL! I felt happy, I really did. It was a...teen squirrel, if that makes any sense, and it(dunno he/she) was trying to get on top of my bed, too high so it climbed my bean bag, and tried jumping across, fail. Then went to the other side of the bed, went near my window...and then out. I was still happy :)
I went inside, went near the window, saw that there was another bigger squirrel there, on the pipes. Thought maybe just another rodent...WRONG!

Saw this little baby




It wasn't all master at balancing, wobbling too, I was scared where my little friend would fall O_O
BUT, mamma comes in! :D



Teaching her baby where to climb!





I was touched. I really was, I must admit, I cried :'-)
Moms anywhere, any kind... are the best.
As I type this, I have tears in my eyes...


Simple stuff, people fail to see.
Just be happy for you who have your mom with you, others, they are always looking out for you, don't worry.
And mother doesn't always apply to the one who gave birth to you... many might not understand, no problem. Those who do, you well know what I mean. :)

They love you as you love them.
God, Almighty has them all.
Love them.
And let our guardian angels be the best forever!

Be grateful for them, they are your own.

"The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness. "


Thursday, 1 May 2014

Gift Box Of Memories.






Locked away all the emotions
Picked up from my playground
I oft laughed with you there
Days ago, maybe weeks, perhaps months
Now I've carefully picked up all the joys
And placed them in my precious box

You made me smile, not seldom
I've had to gift myself that smile one day
So wrapping that up in a gift box too
To be unwrapped on another day
And the dimples will be cratered again

The unspoken promises we had
Locked away in our humble hearts
Now frozen, long forgotten
I'll pick them up too
And gift them to me as memory

I've cared for you
And the prayers I've made
The genuine love in them
Will be the concealing bow
On my most precious gift box

There's more space in it
Maybe I'll wholly find a way to make fit
Even those moments when I thought all was lost
And you held my hand and whispered hope into my soul
It's a gift to a gift from the greatest gift of all
Thank you.

Maybe the box will endure worse weather
Than our hearts ever have
No gloom can shrivel its contents 
Because a gift can never go
It always is, always was, only waiting to be gifted

Monday, 28 April 2014

A Beast at a Time

A Thursday


After days, which seem like months to me, I have the TV remote in hand and was just about to begin lunch.
When I just glance at a big dark figure falling from the sky, onto the road. I thought it was just a random crow swooping down to pick some food. I was wrong. One of the electricity wires swayed too, and I sensed something dubious. I finished my lunch soon, ignoring whatever that came on Discovery Science Channel, I was curious to know what had deceased the earth, so fast, and so fallen.
My uncle stood outside, in the first floor balcony, and he said that an eagle had fallen. An Eagle! That majestic bird of prey, I remember I had two when I was a kid as pets. They were magnificent and big, as I was small. My uncle said the eagle had crawled under the car, and he told me to ignore it.
I listened to nothing.
I was barefooted on the marble floor, wore whatever footwear I could find and went down.

I crouched on the road beside the car and see the eagle, lying down, on his belly(for I assume it's a he) and I extend my hand and try to take him out, failing to recall how dangerous it's beak and talons could be.
I saw a helpless ave before me, and I ignored all threats. It's how I am, I don't care if I'm mortally harmed or injured.
I felt helpless though, the bird didn't want my help.

At that time.... I knew one person who would assist me. My big big bro. Raji. We haven't really spoken decently in years, after a silly fight(it seems silly now, was a big deal then. Hint: lots of punches and kicks) but I knew he would help. So I just give a shout to Raspberry(my aunt) and ask her to call him. She refuses(so rude!) so I tell my uncle, he refuses too(worse rude) so I run back upstairs, two floors up to my room and tell Jij to call him, she was giving my younger bro a bath, all wet and told me to call him. Awkward. So instead I whatsapp him. And rush down again, to check on the bird, on the way down I grab a chicken kebab piece for the eagle.

Down again, I'm waiting, in hope that my bro has seen the message and that he arrives. He lives next street though, not too far. Barely a hundred meters away. But we've been farther, so far away he was just my familiar stranger.
I toss the chicken near the bird's mouth, and it nibbles on it. Ah! At least he's eating. Maybe just got into a mid-flight fight with its peers. Or something like that, since I see another eagle in a relatively good shape land on the roof across my house. It's was... Eeeeeee-ing, or whatever that whistle like sound eagles make.

Five minutes, ten, and I'd lost hope of my brother coming. Even my uncle from top asking me to leave the bird alone, and to come back up. Meh. Would I listen? No. And then... Riding his Dio, came my bro. Confession: never been happier to see that fool phool, alone. I smiled, a grin of relief.
That moment, no one else mattered, only me, my brother and the bird, who we wouldn't let die, much less be further harmed.
We still don't speak we'll, though we could type well and have a relatively decent conversation there, mere words on a screen and no tune echoing in the air.
He asked my uncle for a piece of cloth, I was confused until I realized he was taking precaution. Talons and beak. Which I had forgotten. He went inside, near the garage and brought a jug of water and an inch thick stick. He tried making the eagle drink water, it was still lying on its belly and couldn't crawl back out. But he managed to bring the bird out, from under the car with the help of that stick. The eagle held on to the stick with its razor shape beak, and when my brother slowly pulled it out, out came the bird's body. I felt stupid then, why wasn't I as smart as him? Why did I forget the natural instinct of the beast?
The stick still in beak, and beak open, Raji carefully made the bird drink some water.

The cloth was still there, and he covered the bird with it, tail and lower body. And called his friend up asking him to come here(spoiler: his friend never arrived). And he tells me that that was the same friend who gave him Jack. Jack was his pet eagle for less than a week, Jack flew away. I never met him. Meh. So yeah that guy probably knows a bit more about the bird. Maybe.
It's still so weird, actually speaking to my brother. And he then told me to keep the eagle's beak open and stiff with the stick, that he'd try picking it up. He explained that he had to catch the feet of the bird to haul him up and hold him put. He said we had to take the bird up to the terrace. I agreed, no idea what was there to object in that. But we were waiting for his friend.
I couldn't bear the wait, I was kneeling down just like him. The knees of my jeans smeared with dust and I touch the eagle... Cautiously, now aware since my bro reminded me I could bleed with merely a strike from the sharp beak or talon. Though I doubted the bird could lift a foot, but it's head was active, 270 degrees I tell you.
And then, that other eagle, remember, swooped bit low. As if warning us both. My uncle immediately demanded us both up, but we naturally ignored him. Haha. The love for animals runs in this generation of my family. My brothers and I, we absolutely love them. Especially cats. I though, am the most fearless. I don't care of I'm bitten or scratched, not my bros though. Caution surfaces.

That other eagle perched up two stories high on my neighbor's house, keeping a close watch. Ironic, their eyes are splendid. But worse things were on the way: stray dogs. Five of them, I was closer to the fallen eagle, and my bro stood up, as if to fend off the healthier, more threatening beasts or to defend me, or just run away(possible, highly possible) I didn't know. He had that jug of water in hand and sprinkled it on the dogs, they scurried away. Thank god, and then he picked up and little stone and tossed it at the other eagle up, it flew away, but was circling high up. See, still keeping close watch. Maybe a friend, or sibling, or kin of this fallen ave.

Raji then said we had to take the bird up, now. So I did as he said, held the stick firmly in the eagle's beak and he fiddled to find the feet of the bird under it. Still cautious. We should totally be wildlife volunteers, imagine! Okay, so he managed finally to lift the bird, and we ascended upstairs. All those bloody stairs, more than fifty of them! I was tired.
And there was Fudge. My cat who I knew not how he would react on seeing the eagle. He was basking on the terrace, our little destination. Bro told me to leave Fudge down, I obeyed.
See, just recently Jij was cleaning the terrace, she cleaned half of it, so there was a junk mound in the middle. Made of twigs, dried coconut leaves, all that, a perfect nest.
We placed the eagle on the ground, in the shade. We have a coconut tree, and a tarpaulin canopy. Lots of shade. A couple of plants in pots.
Raji said we had to give the eagle more water, so I turned on the tap connected to a pipe and we fed it water.
After being hydrated, the bird walked a bit. Yay! But it crawled into the "nest" and chuckled up against himself, and... He was shivering slightly. I so wish the bird is alright soon. It was probably dehydrated, bloody Bangalore heat, we need the rains! Anyways, the bird seemed to have better reflexes now, snapped at us. But he calmed down soon after... and I forgot every harm, went ahead and stroked its back. Soft, so so soft! Softer than velvet(softer than a cat's fur), I had forgotten. I now remember. Fearless, reckless, call me whatever: I stroked the bird's head. Scratched it, and it first snapped then relaxed! Pride filled in me.

My brother though asked me if I wanted a photo. I didn't find it necessary, but he handed me the bird, showed me how to hold it firmly and took pics, later asked me to take his pics too. Done. All the while, my littlest cousin bro Affu tagged along, and I asked him what the eagle's name should be. He said "Eagle!". Wow. Then later after few minutes, he called the bird "Sugar". What's so sweet in it bro? Haha. But I ain't naming it Sugar, no way. Maybe Spice as one of my friend suggested. Yeah, Jack and Spice. Recent raptor pets. Of Faraz and Numey.
(Even if we have them for a few hours ^.^)

It was getting late, almost evening and we descended down, the Eagle safe in his nest. Warm and comfortable.
All the while, I feel happy. My bro stood by me, while my uncle had other views. He wanted us to just leave the bird in the graveyard opposite out street, and let it die there. Worse, get eaten by dogs and snakes and whatnot that resides there. A graveyard ain't as dead as it seems y'know.
A bit of hope, a bit of pride and a little touch of love. The ice between us is breaking, bit by bit. He's no more being that familiar stranger... More like a renewed acquaintance.
And today, after years... When he left my house, he told me bye. Never has he greeted me in so long.

I'm earning my brother back. Thanks to these beasts. He gave me Fudge, what else could I ask for? He trusted me with the responsibility of his friend's cat who found his way to my heart, and my life, and is keeping the abyss at bay.

Beast by beast... Our friendship grows.


Spice used to sit like this, and wait....

"Hello, now let me just fly... or try to.."

My Favourite pic of Spice ^_^

A bird awaits the wind

Tired after a meal.

Dusk

Beautiful plumage




After fifteen days in our care, he finally flew away. :) 


And, I


Be. And I was; am still bold
Born on a winter day, a child behold
Bright in the chill air, in the cold
Beloved by loved, both young and old

Labeled a blessing, a genuine gift
Larking in visions, of sleep awaiting a lift
Labyrinth is my way ahead, as I drift
Lasting for longer than a bitter rift

Deep of ideals, of thought
Drawn to justice, I might have fought
Dreams of fantasies, I've so much sought
Deeds are to be earned, not bought

Somebody discovering once said, the world is round
So I; we know that, ‘cause we've been all around
Spirited free, exploring, souls can’t be bound
Shunning dread, eloping to a different dimension, never to be found

Outlive the norms, the bewildered expression
Overrating the journeys, living in obsession
Orphaning desires of others, creating self impression 
Our lives are run on one fuel; passion

Using the heart, more than brain or eyes
Unwinding the truth from fiction, honesty lies
Under the million twinkles and seven skies
Upbeat about the dawn of tomorrow; the sun’s rise

From deep below, a white bird; rings a bell
Forgetting all clans and divides, just keeping friendship to tell
For each soul there’s another, and here, hiding in a dell
Feraling humanity, I search for a better hell

Hell or heaven or human ground, I don’t know
How I’ll be there, alone, lonely like now
Healing will be soon, one world for one soul is how
Higher in gratitude, humble and I then bow

Where I hide no longer in that cove
With the last flight of that dove
When the heavens open above
Will I ever find that love?




A Pond


Lost I walk alone 
On a path that's been trodden
Many footprints faded
Ferns swaying 
Zephyr brushing my hair
Icy blankets wrapping me from within
Barefooted I walk forth
Fireflies dot the scene 
Before me a pond
I walk to the bank seeking
Want a good look at who I am
Like a mirror 
That reflects, what's right as left
And left is right
My face so lost
Among the flowers
Petals soft, dragonflies flutter
Their wings as clear
Not as my thoughts
Yet of the spectacle before me
A fish swims by in the pond
My hand feels for it
Scales as slimy
Swings away swiftly
Water's cold. Hard. Still. 
Ripples muddle my face
No more a reflection in that pond
I get up and walk away 
Back into the wilderness
Home where there is no clearing 
Only woods where I seek it 
Never to be back again 
To that pond with a lone fish